That which we seek, is inside of ourselves. It remains hidden within, beneath the rubble, the fragments of dreams and disappointments; an oasis in the middle of a dessert.
Hi my name is Sabrina
I stand before you as someone who has walked a very jugged path, met her shadows along the way, and who is ready to take your hand and walk beside you as you meet yours. It has taken me 40 years of my life to recognise and accept my own soul mission. Some would tell you I am still resisting it! And it has taken immense pain and shadow work, to get to this very point. Just like you I am also in search of my own truth, of connection to my own inner self. I have always believed that no matter the choices one makes in their lives, we are all, every single one of us, a special soul with a unique soul print and purpose. Holding onto that spark of light, even when I’ve been down on my knees, is what has kept me going in my darkest hour.
You just have to want to look, to search and to show up, with uncompromising devotion to yourself. The universe takes care of the rest for you, as it has its own divine plan for each and every one of us.
My Journey
To have my own identity. I also had certain aspirations, and goals which I had undertaken to achieve. Some of it was I thought, for the greater good. I always had a deep desire to make a difference in this world and to be that change. There was nothing really wrong with this plan. And of course, it could all have gone so smoothly. I could have completed all those high net worth property deals and I could have made the amount of money I always envisaged and truly believed I was destined to make. I could have gone on to fulfilling my own dreams of giving back to the community and to the world some of what I was lucky enough to have. And of course; I wanted to be in a loving relationship with my soul mate. That has probably been my deepest desire above everything else.
Instead, what I somehow experienced in my reality was devastating heartbreak, to the point of not wanting to live and numbing my pain with food in the years that would come. But then, I ask myself the question; had I have fulfilled my plan, would I really be here right now, sharing my personal story with the world, desiring to hold space for others in my situation. Had my plan” gone to plan” I would have skipped out on a whole lot of inner work and heartache. And Had I not have understood pain, disappointment, confusion and separation to source, to the degree and intensity that I have experienced it, I may have accomplished my dreams, but I may never have known my true soul’s desires or started to discover the voice of my own self -expression.
Addiction comes in all forms; and sometimes the most ill harbouring addiction of all is the way we see ourselves and view ourselves negatively. Whether it is food, sugar, alcohol, drugs, sex or co-dependent relationships; these are merely symptoms of the bigger root cause. Staying with emotional pain, is also a habit of sorts. Through heart centred healing, we can re-discover ourselves and regain an inner balance.
My choices, and all my decisions or the lack of, have brought me here today, right over to you. and if you are still reading this, then chances are, what I am sharing is resonating with you on some deep level be it conscious or perhaps more subtle. Although there is pain on this journey of getting to know oneself, and you must be ready to shed all these layers you’ve been protecting yourself with, there is undoubtedly nothing more profound and beautiful than this journey either. So much so, that even the pain leaves behind its gifts of wisdom for you to unwrap as you journey more into self.